Friday, my young friend and I went down to clean the barn. I decided I could do more, so, with my wheelchair towed behind the golf cart we arrived at the barn. We did a good job cleaning up and emptying and cleaning buckets etc., but 30 minutes later I embarked on cleaning the wheelchair, my sandal, and orthopedic boot. That took as long as cleaning the barn. What a mess. I want to do more but everything takes so long to do and sometimes things seem a ridiculous effort. Part of the problem, I am sure, has been the heat this week. But alas, we just had a storm arrive so it will be cool again. Will that make a difference?
For some reason, it seems like I can not focus very long on anything. Yesterday, I did finish two small felting projects but still it seems like my mind goes from one thing to the next and not a lot gets accomplished.
Funny, I thought not being able to put weight on my right foot for 8 weeks would allow me to focus on a few projects and get some things done. First the pain got in the way. Then it was having to have my foot elevated so much, now I am not sure.
I am afraid I am going to get to the end of the 8 weeks and think "no! I am not ready to go back to regular life- I haven't gotten the things done that I wanted to".
Maybe, the attitude of getting things "done" is what should be looked at. Why do things have to get done? Why can't we just continually EXPLORE whatever comes to mind. It seems, eventually, we will get finished exploring some things and go on to others.
Although I haven't achieved much to look at, I have taken time to look at things from a different perspective. In all the journey work I have done, this "suggestion" to look at things from a different perspective, is a subject that comes up over and over. Maybe, this is what this broken ankle experience is about.
An opportunity to further explore "looking at things from a different perspective".